unbelievably unbelievable
I love receiving cards from people, especially when they are given "just because". Those are the cards I enjoy the most, and tend to keep. I've kept the cards that mean something to me, and that remind me of times in my life. Like the card my sister gave to me when she asked me to be a bridesmaid in her wedding, or the cards I have gotten from my pen pal Allison. Allison moved to Iowa a couple of years after high school and is horrible at keeping in touch through phone calls, email, or text - she doesn't even have facebook! :)
The most recent card that has found a home on my bookshelf is one that a coworker (you know who you are) gave me "just because" a couple of months ago. It says "You're organized, efficient, hardworking, motivated, and dedicated". These words ring true in my work life. I try my hardest to stay organized and keep on track with what needs to get done.
However, my home life is a COMPLETELY different story. When I caught a glimpse of this card today and took a look around my apartment, I couldn't help but be frustrated with myself. Even though I moved in over five months ago, I still have unpacked boxes laying around. The mess that has overtaken every room would make my mother cringe with every fiber in her being. I need help... BAD.
The disarray that has taken over my life outside of work has jumped into high gear. I am dedicated, at procrastination. The entire apartment needs to be cleaned, my bills need to be paid (late), you don't want to know the last time I got an oil change. I honestly don't know how to force myself to make these things happen consistently.
Remember those New Years Resolutions I made? Goodness gracious! I'm not organized, obviously, my bills are still being paid late - mostly because of my procrastination, rather than financial reasons. I have let my etsy shop fall to the wayside, and this is something that I was really enjoying and REALLY want to return to. Obviously my blogs are not being updated! I was doing really well on going to the gym, until this month. I don't know the last time I cooked for myself (even though those dishes are still waiting to be cleaned), and I haven't picked up the 50 Photo Projects book in a couple months.
I am not exaggerating when I say that I am a procrastinator. I know I need (or want) to do these things, so why don't I do them?! I've been telling myself for a few weeks now that I just need to hit the restart button. I need to do a major cleanup job, bring the bills up to current, take (and post) some photographs, and revive my etsy shop. After that, all I need to do is keep it up. Except here's the issue - I'm procrastinating on pressing the restart button!
At work I am focused, I am there to get a job done. Even when I say "I'm done for the day" (sometimes when the day is barely half done), I know that I am there for a reason and continue to work on another task. At home though, there is no one else depending on things getting done. I won't be written up if the dishes don't get clean. If I don't pay my bills on time the only one hurting is me (and maybe the company I pay).
I need to take the words on that card to heart, and transfer them to my home life. I need to be organized, efficient, hardworking, motivated and dedicated. I honestly believe that if I come up with a plan (my biggest worry is the bills, I need a surefire way to organize myself there) that I can make it work. But it can't be any plan, it has to be well thought out and catered to the way I go about my life. It has to have checklists (making lists is one good habit I've inherited from my mother). How am I supposed to do this when Top Chef is on tonight? :)
The most recent card that has found a home on my bookshelf is one that a coworker (you know who you are) gave me "just because" a couple of months ago. It says "You're organized, efficient, hardworking, motivated, and dedicated". These words ring true in my work life. I try my hardest to stay organized and keep on track with what needs to get done.
However, my home life is a COMPLETELY different story. When I caught a glimpse of this card today and took a look around my apartment, I couldn't help but be frustrated with myself. Even though I moved in over five months ago, I still have unpacked boxes laying around. The mess that has overtaken every room would make my mother cringe with every fiber in her being. I need help... BAD.
The disarray that has taken over my life outside of work has jumped into high gear. I am dedicated, at procrastination. The entire apartment needs to be cleaned, my bills need to be paid (late), you don't want to know the last time I got an oil change. I honestly don't know how to force myself to make these things happen consistently.
Remember those New Years Resolutions I made? Goodness gracious! I'm not organized, obviously, my bills are still being paid late - mostly because of my procrastination, rather than financial reasons. I have let my etsy shop fall to the wayside, and this is something that I was really enjoying and REALLY want to return to. Obviously my blogs are not being updated! I was doing really well on going to the gym, until this month. I don't know the last time I cooked for myself (even though those dishes are still waiting to be cleaned), and I haven't picked up the 50 Photo Projects book in a couple months.
I am not exaggerating when I say that I am a procrastinator. I know I need (or want) to do these things, so why don't I do them?! I've been telling myself for a few weeks now that I just need to hit the restart button. I need to do a major cleanup job, bring the bills up to current, take (and post) some photographs, and revive my etsy shop. After that, all I need to do is keep it up. Except here's the issue - I'm procrastinating on pressing the restart button!
At work I am focused, I am there to get a job done. Even when I say "I'm done for the day" (sometimes when the day is barely half done), I know that I am there for a reason and continue to work on another task. At home though, there is no one else depending on things getting done. I won't be written up if the dishes don't get clean. If I don't pay my bills on time the only one hurting is me (and maybe the company I pay).
I need to take the words on that card to heart, and transfer them to my home life. I need to be organized, efficient, hardworking, motivated and dedicated. I honestly believe that if I come up with a plan (my biggest worry is the bills, I need a surefire way to organize myself there) that I can make it work. But it can't be any plan, it has to be well thought out and catered to the way I go about my life. It has to have checklists (making lists is one good habit I've inherited from my mother). How am I supposed to do this when Top Chef is on tonight? :)
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